OMG LOCAL CONCERT IN QUAKERTOWN=AWESOME AND THE MOST FUNN I HAVE HAD IN MY WHOLE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-- It was awesome omg i met soooo many new ppl from Quakertown like Jasmine,Travis,Tom(hes pretty hott omg haha) and i saw J-Dawg haha that was ok i guess i havent seen him in like 3 months!!!!! But the music was awesome totally rockin out haha but it was sooo funn when Brandi would act like she is punk haha like head bangin haha but i love her and hten Travis got in my face and i wasnt lookin so when i turned to look he was all in my face so i got a lil scared haha but it was sooo much funn the ppl i hung out wtih are awesome so no one diss them haha htye are cool and yea the two bands i got to see cus we left a lil early were great and let me tell u some of the ppl in the bands looked like ppl from other bands like hawthorne and from first to last and the one drummer who was so cute acted like the drummer from underoath so it was weird but so awesome haha i was wiped out after that tho haha

--- o and that last entry about my one friend no one needs to worry we are cool we talked about it and i kno what he is goin through so i kno that i need to be here for him haha but til next time kiddos lyrics

<3

ash

I WASH IT DOWN
just to block out all the sound
I NEVER THOUGHT I'D BE ALONE
WELL look at me now

Sleepless nights
Painful goodbyes
Who the hell was I kidding?

the room starts to spin
ALL ALONE AND BLEEDING ONCE AGAIN
CAN YOU HELP ME MAKE THIS
MAKE THIS FUCKING END

Oh my god there must be something...
Something to take the pain away
And so there's nothing you can give me...
It's probably better off that way

Just forget
All I ever wanted
Was to forget

Bloodshot eyes and a starless sky
Who the hell are we kidding?

YOU LOOK SO CONTENT
I GUESS THE BRIGHT SIDE
HASN'T FOUND ME YET
PULL ME UP SO I CAN CATCH MY BREATH

Oh my god there must be something
Something to take the pain away
And so there's nothing you can give me
It's probably better off that way

I live my life in the shadows
Of the things i try to hide

Oh my god there must be something
Something to take the pain away
And so there's nothing you can give me
It's probably better off that way

Even tho i updated yesterday i do have some shit to say today

--Why do ppl sit there and like smack in my face that i have this thought of moving in my head? If they really care they wouldnt do that would they???At least i dont think so and it really made me upset when he did that to me today in chem so i kno now that he knows who he is.  I wanted to cry right there on the spot but i knew that i couldnt i knew that i had to suck it up and do my lab work... same feeling during english too i wanted to start to cry so bad during my test but knew that i had to hold it back. In fact i still have that same feeling and am crying right now and it sucks that the one person that i thought would be there for me in this situation just make feel so bad about it? Its weird and ironic i kno but u kno what IF U DONT WANNA HELP ME THROUGH THIS THEN DONT JUST DONT PUSH IT ALL IN MY FACE AND MAKE ME FEEL BAD ABOUT IT OR SAD AND MAKE ME CRY ABOUT IT!!!!! For the record im not really mad at this person it just sucks that he could make me feel this way when i kno what he is goin through right now but all well life goes on and personally all this just makes me wanna leave more but at the same time im sad about it but yea this is now the only way i can get out all my emotions and feelings without breaking down about it when i talk to someone about it. I really dont kno if any of u care or if i really even made like any sense in this entry but get over it thats what happens when ur sad and u ramble!!!!

ON A LIGHTER NOTE

-- LOCAL SHOW TONIGHT IN QUAKERTOWN IN LIKE 3 HOURS LET ME TELL U HOW EXCITED I AM WOOT WOOT ill hopefully have pics from it and some friends sometime soon but i cant promise anything so dont give hopes up haha

<3

ash

SOME ONE BOUGHT MY HOUSE LAST NIGHT!!!!!!   but i guess it dont really matter that much since i have that thought but we will see what happens with that im not too sure what i wanna do yet but until later kiddos much love and lyrics

<3

ash

"American Death"

Is this the end of my life or just the end of the world
Skeletons rule the cities as the innocent burn
And if you stand up and fight with your black flag tonight
They'll put tape on your mouth as they kiss you goodbye

Dance [x4]
Come dance with me, come dance with me
Dance [x4]
Dance Dance, come dance, come dance with me

You know you can't stay neutral
On a moving train
So pick a fucking side
And place the blame
'Cause there's nothing worse
than a bird with wings who doesn't fly

So wake up and smell the flowers today
Don't they reek of shit and bloody money
There's not an ounce of love that's left in the world
You're not alive any more your a possible sale

Dance [x4]
Come dance with me, come dance with me
Dance [x4]
Dance Dance, come dance, come dance with me

You know you can't stay neutral
On a moving train
So pick a fucking side
And place the blame
'Cause there's nothing worse
than a bird with wings who doesn't fly

There's still war on page six
America don't die like this
there's still war on page six
A-ME-RI-CA!
There's still war on page six
America don't die like this
there's still war on page six
America don't die like this

You know you cant stay neutral
On a moving train
So pick a fucking side
And place the blame
'Cause there's nothing worse
than a bird with wings who doesn't

You know you cant stay neutral
On a moving train
So pick a fucking side
And place the blame
'Cause there's nothing worse
than a bird with wings who doesn't fly


SENSES FAIL-- American Death <333

So im back from my mothers house and yea so i dyed the hair once again haha not black or purple well i didnt dye it any of the colors on purpose but im still not tellin u what color it is haha u all just have to wait but here are pics:

 o yea man the school i wanna go to after i bust out of here!!!

 o man i love my lil sister to death haha i SWEAR!!

 DUDE MAN MY BROTHER AND I GOT SOME SERIOUS AIR HAHA

 yea yea u all are jealous that she isnt ur lil sister i kno i would be if she wasnt my lil sis haha

 and finally guess whos ass is mine and my moms then tell me which one is better

-- so i hope that u all have funn lookin at these haha and this friday i go to a concert in Quakertown for one of brandis freinds band haha it should be funn

<3

ash

Yeah so im updating once again cus i leave for my mom's house today and i wont be back until monday night!!!!!! And being the fact that today was pretty much AWESOME haha...... so to start off with today!!!!! So at like 9:20 am i get a call from TIMMY askin if i was awake and if i was hangin wiht him todya and then he came and got me aroung like 10am..... went to go to the mall got sidetracked by one of his friends cus he honked and we "kidnapped" him since he was wiht him mom haha hes a loser jk jk but yea so then off to the mall where me tim and max went to pacsun where they could get hats and they think that are pretty gangster haha but then we wnt to the game store didnt have the right game so back to the mall and hten after that we went to taco bell....I was forced to eat cus it was still sorta early and i ate breakfast before i left but i was still forced to eat hahaha but yea then we went to costco and snuck in which really wasnt hard but max decided that he was still a lil hungry and went to ALL the sample aisle thingys and ate some more haha it was funny tho and hten we went to umm Toys R Us and yea when we went to leave we decided to attempt and be gangster and turned on some hip hop music i would say what they were callin it but i wont haha and started dancin like we were cool too bad we looked like losers but then max decided to stand up out of tim's sunfroof and danced until we got out of the parking lot haha then dropped max off and went to see Kat haha not for that long tho cus i needed to get home and Tim needed to go to work haha but yea There are way too many stories to tell u all about on here hahaha but yea it was funn.

                I got home right and i was hoime for like not even 5 mins and i get a text from SHAWNY BAWNY askin what i was doin so i called her and asked if she wanted to hang for a lil bit cus i didnt wanna be home and she was bored so we hung for like 45min we went to walmart and Dairy Queen it was hard to figure out what to do since i did EVERYTHING possibly u could do in souderton/telford/h-ville wiht tim and max..haha but yea so then i came home and my mommy called and now im leaving tonight wow was this a long ass entry and u kno i usually have lyrics on here but i wont today since this is like a book haha talk to u lata

<3

ash

--call me this weekend so that way i have ppl to talk to haha